Amy, and Erica at the opening party
After a long journey (and I do mean journey-11 hour drive to be exact) to Blissdom with Dwan, and Erica, we arrived and jumped right into the blissdom activiites. We had a great time chatting, and eating, and chatting, and eating some more, well I think you get the picture.
Overall, thus far I’ve had a fairly good time at Blissdom. The event itself is very well organized and planned, and I really appreciate all of the hard work and effort that is involved in such a conference.
I have had some difficulties at Blissdom though. I previously attended BlogHer and really loved the whole experience. I believe a big part of that being such a positive experience was the bonding time spent with my “best buddies” Kristin, Sarah, and Casey. I love those ladies, and we had an unforgettable time at BlogHer.
Back to Blissdom, I tried to step out of my insecure comfort zone, (knowing that my best friends wouldn’t be here) and really I was hoping to glean some insight from this conference. I have enjoyed the sessions, and I have had some good conversations with old and new friends alike, many being fellow bloggers. But, I miss my kids, I miss my husband, and I get really shy and insecure in groups of people I don’t know. I hate introducing myself to blank stares, and then I start to question blogging in general. Should I continue to blog at all, is it even worth it, are the only readers and followers I have just to take benefit in one of my giveaways? (Not that I fault them)
I’m depressed and feeling sorry for myself, yes it’s pity-party time. This is me, this is real.
I pray tomorrow holds a more positive outlook, and offers hope and new perspective for me, and thanks to those of you who are supportive no matter what.
Anyone have any advice on how to snap out of this? Or a medication that would help, lol, (just kidding.)
{ 12 comments… read them below or add one }
The real you sounds special. I love reading a blog knowing that the person is writing exactly who they are.
I have never been to any confrences. But, how about a drink? Maybe that will loosen you up ( :
I would miss my kids and husband too! But you need the time for you too! I think you should continue to blog!
I think I’d be feeling the same way you are, Lizzy. I’d definitely miss my family, and wish for familiar faces and friends to kind of … fall back on if you need it. I hope tomorrow is a better day
I’d get homesick too, but I am totally green that you’re at Blissdom. My blog is centered around reviews/giveaways and I feel kind of used too at times. It is what it is. There are a few bloggy friends that only comment on personal posts, and this year I’m trying to post more non-giveaway posts.
I’m hoping to go to BlogHer so that I can meet you – you sound really nice in person.
If it makes you feel any better, I felt like that all during BlogHer and even at the brief Ninja launch event. I hope it’s normal! In any case, it is certainly relatable- especially if you are closer to your blog friends than real life friends at the moment. It’s hard not to have time to yourself at conferences and it’s awkward when you’re not the life of the party. I am sure you will enjoy yourself when all is said and done.
Hey, tomorrow is another day. The sun will shine and you will feel better. Sometimes a little break from home is good to you and them.
Keep the faith and all will be well.
Thanks so much for the encouraging words ladies! I actually had a better day on Saturday, so it all worked out, I was just really struggling on Friday. You all are awesome, and I do appreciate your kindness!
Sure wish I would have read this before the trip ended! WHAT? You better keep on blogging….you are good! Keep on a going at it, girl!
I feel MUCH the same way at conferences. Seems everyone puts their game-face on, but many feel the same way. Hopefully we can spend more time together and get to know each other at the next one.
Jill is right, many have their gameface on. My first BlogHer was 07, nobody knew me aside from a couple of blogfriends. I attended 08 which was more fun because I had more friends, but it really wasn’t until 09 that I got the occasional, “I know you” or “I’ve read your blog.” And I started blogging in 2005! Best to focus on your goals and if you don’t seem to fit or be welcomed into someone else’s “tribe,” then start your own.
Umm… Is this the same Lizzy that I met with Erica and Dwan? Really? Honey I adored you! Aside from a few tweets here and there this was the most I’d ever talked to you AND our first meeting! I know you think I’m nuts but let me tell you, it’s crazy and insane meeting so many people in such a short amount of time. I get nervous and I talk too much and then I obsess later about what I said, mental replay if I was a complete nut (consensus on that is… YES.) But I chalk it up to this is another part of me. I’m not nervous in front of monitor (unless I’m vlogging), I don’t get hung up on what I say so I have to FORCE myself not to do it in person.
Hugs to you lizzydear
… You are much adored and loved and you have a new fan in me!
Girl, you didn’t know I had Xanex in my purse? Just kidding… But seriously you know I LOVE you! Can’t wait for our next slumber party on Thursday. Watch out Houston, here we come!
Ha!! thanks Dwan! You are too sweet!! I am excited too, Mom 2.0 here we come!